Thursday, September 20, 2007

StReSsEd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recently i am so stressed over many many stuffs. So much work to do. I have certain feelings nowadays. I feel that in everyone's eyes, I'm only an extra. When no one talks to them, they will then look for me or talk to me. No matter what you do, no one will think that you are being good and they won't rmb the good but the bad. Sad thing to say but that is the fact that happens to me. Maybe I should not bother too much but it is difficult not to think. (being treated like a spare tyre). Things are endless for me. Too much things till i feel so overwhelmed. I feel lonely. hehe....... Things have to be mutual sometimes

However, I feel lucky sometimes to have Benny with me although sometimes he don't know what to do when i confide in him. One more month to 5 yrs. Cant imagine we have been together for so long. I have a BRO too. Xu hao, Thanks for always being there for me and always treating me so well. Sorry for all the expenses. Benny, I'm really happy and lucky to have you.Whenever i feel unhappy about friends or work, I will know that you are still there although i can be quite unreasonable at times. Sorry for all that and thanks for bearing it with me all this while. Lets hope all unhappy moments will be over soon.Many ppl told me that i'm lucky to have you and to treasure you. Of cos i know that, if not we won't be together for so long le rite? hehe... Lets hope in future we will still be together FOREVER. I'm waiting for that day when i will be FREE. FREE from all TROUBLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't like the feeling of accomodating with ppl just to be able to click with them. Cos thats NOT me!!! I'm a quiet person esp when i am in a bad mood. I can be fun and laugh like crazy too BUT very very seldom..... It all depends. But i often accomodate ppl cos i don't them to be unhappy or think that i don't click with them. Thus i joke with them sometimes but i realise thats not me. No choice ba. Thats what we have to do to make ppl feel entertained.If not ppl dun feel like talking to you.

Really think i'm having depression soon (or is it I too emotional?) I can cry easily. Out of nothing, I feel sad then look gloomy. Recently ppl ask me why i look so sad n sian. Probably thats the reason ba.

Lets talk about something happy. TRIPS!!!!! Taiwan and Hong Kong. Mayb I should go there shop and distress. However, we still need $$$$ to be able to enjoy!!!Life cant be as fulfiling without money!!! I can say actually won't be able to enjoy to the fullest without money. (dun talk about enjoying in S'pore la). Thats how cruel life it is. BORING MAN!!!!