Friday, February 1, 2008

Just finished reading Evan's blog and would like to express my views here. Evan, i agree with u. I share the same thoughts as you. Maybe thats the scary part of human. Ya, indeed i feel sad thou i said i will not la. But i cant possibly feel nothing. However, i will not be like in the past, crying every day over the same matter. I can feel myself changing.Changing in the sense that things that have happened i cant control and i will let it be. No point doing anymore things. Cos its too hurting to know the result.

Friends come and go. So dun need to feel sad. Thou upon looking at the past, it is indeed sad. But... Wat can we do???? Nothing. So as i have said, to be contented is enuf. Thou im still trying, i can see some light in it already. When i complain of cos is only complain la. After that i will be ok le. So dun worry.

You still have many of your other friends so it is very good already. Ya. You are right that we cant be sad for our entire life thinking bout things that wun even have a good ending. So in life we are 身不游己 (dunno write correctly not, but anyway pronounciation same can liao. hehe). We cant control the ppl around us, neither to their thinking, so... let them think wateva n do wateva they like. No point lamenting on the past and no point to explain any further cos the facts wun change.

In ppl's eyes, Im also always the last they will think about. But..... At the very least for u... (ive said many times. Think u also know wat i wanna say - you are better off than me already). No point comparing who is better. Cos if really wan to compare, there will be many more ppl who are better off and worse off than us .

OK... Lets stop here. CNY is coming but i'm not as excited anymore. That is y i say i 不想长大. Cos when u are young, you are always so excited n happy bout CNY. Maybe is cos haven started with the decorations and cleaning up so dun feel anything. CNY now is nothing but jux to get hong bao (sad thinking ya)......hehe.....